I've gone out for drinks with my new employer-turned-friend, I've gone to an over-populated rooftop party where I watched the world's largest fireworks display, I've gone shopping in places a poor girl should never shop, I've discovered Hasidic Jews aren't friendly - or maybe they want to be, but aren't allowed to be...? Anyway, I've had a rich week in NY, full of encounters and events, yet I can only conjure up one word to express my thoughts and opinions - (quick shrug) 'Meh...' But let me remain concrete about one thing; I adore this family and hate the thought of leaving for a new one. However, I received that call from Canada, and the match looks promising. It seems we're excited about each other. I'll know by the 15th!
Now. Back to that party. I want to elaborate a bit. You see, the host's girlfriend was an old friend from back home. I couldn't wait to see her, along with the rooftop, the bands, the DJ, the fireworks, the food! Oh, it sounded so... so... so New York City! And it was, I can assure you, but I let something so insignificant spoil my mood, which therefore spoiled my night. This girl. Ugh!
My dear, old friend introduced me to said girl minutes after my arrival. Based on first impressions, she was friendly, and quite possibly the life of the party. I found out we were both nannies and both from Texas. I also found out we had met before, back home. (Small world.) But these commonalities became a hazard when she took it as an opening to say some terrible things about someone very close to me, someone she's never even met. The girl realized the tension she created and made jokes about how she loves to say inappropriate things. She didn't bother apologizing. Instead, she made it worse by going further.
Like I said above, this minor encounter was really insignificant. This girl was insignificant. But for some reason, I let her get me down. I left almost immediately after the fireworks went off, despite the fact that it was early and the party would be going on for hours longer. I went as far as to play melancholy music on my mp3 player while walking home. Ridiculous! Absolutely ridiculous! It's so unlike me. Here I am in NYC at my first rooftop party, there are hundreds of interesting people around, good music is pouring out of the speakers, fresh food covers the tables, and the view alone is enough to keep anyone in their right-mind there, at least for a while... Yet, I leave it all because of one silly girl? It was as if that one encounter made everything feel dirty. I just couldn't clean up after the mess she made.
I'm trying to like this place. I really am. But it's just... it's just... It's just 'Meh...'
2 comments:
Darling Meggie ... I'm glad you followed your instincts, left the party and went home. Good for you!
You had to see New York before you could truly know how you feel about it. You've seen. You know. Now, you can go on to the next adventure.
Stay strong and honor the committment you made as a Nanny. If you agreed to stay two months with this good family, then stay two months. Don't duck out Early. You won't will you?
I believe (based on mistakes I've made) that each time we see something through to a proper ending, we grow stronger. Each time we take the easy way out and fail to fulfill our agreement, we grow weaker.
You are such a wonderful human being, Meggie. You have no idea, really, how special you are. You are miles smarter, sweeter, better than most people. You're going to do out-standing things with your life, once you get through examining the world. I wish you'd start another book. Think about it. You can do it, Meggie. I know you can.
I love you so ....
Oh no! I wouldn't do that to this family. If anything, I'll stay longer than planned just because I've grown so fond of them. And if I do leave at the end of the 2 months, despite the fact they've invited me to stay forever, I'll let them know about my plans to leave the very second I have them set in stone.
And Grandmas are supposed to think their grandkids are as special as you make me out to be, but even thought I know this, I still eat it up everytime you say such kind things. I love you too.
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